From Mike Johan 


: Farmia my lovely wife, sorry I was takin' my bath just now. I'm sorry I can't call you cause I don't much credit left and oh ya, forget to tell you that my mum's phone was missing. Niko did that. Muuahh :* If can, please do call me. I'll wait. Darling, Iloveyou and I missing you right now. Take care. -Your husband-


: Miaa, mmuuahh :* I still tryin' to count how much I love you and yet still no answer. It's prove that my love to you can't be count, can't be seen, only can be feel by you. Iloveyou. You're lucky to get my love cause my love is so true which it is hard and kinda impossible to get it anywhere. I'm the only one for you. The only one who love you deeply. So appreciate it and love me too. Maybe more than me. Loveyou darling.


: My life was twisted. I felt like I was drowning in darkness. But who thought everything could change? The thing that had kill me once comeback to give me a new life. To see an angel from heaven I felt peace. Look deep into your eyes I see no lie. My heart opened and gave you some space to get in. Once you entered my life was totally changed. It's safe to safe that you're miracle. From my eyes you are not ordinary girl. You're my angel, my everything. You saved my life. You don't know how much it mean to me. Before I knew you never true love existed. I'm scared that we might break up one day. I don't know what I will do without you. So I'm begging you don't leave me and promise to me I won't be your ex and there won't be next for you. I can't sit still if we still unmarried. Swear I love you and it wasn't some shit I just write down. I don't care what others will say. I just want to be with you cause Miaa, I love you. 

Oh the Hell, my class is at 4th floor :O But thank God cikgu tknak ajar sebab penat. Hhahahahahhaa Okay I got oral test for BI tadi. Dapat tajuk ni : Me me me. It's all about me. Hhahaha nasib baik weh dapat tajuk senang *Itu pun merepek psl binatang. Zzzzzzz Next week exam. Sekolah lain sume dah habis exam. Knape skolah aku lambat? Tkkan tngu budak budak PMR trial baru kitorang exam? Hurrrrr -.-" Semalam tengok Sekali Lagi. Sumpah weh tknak tengok lagi. Meleleh dah air mata. Sebelah dah lah Mike -.-" Tp tktau lah dia perasan ke tk enn. Harap-harap tk perasan lah. Tp memang best lah cerita dia, smpai aku pun menangis. Okay gotta stop here. mandi, pastu makaannn.


Lama gila pegi Kip Mart enn? Dating ape? -.-"

Every night I cry and every single tear I drop, I die inside, I try to hide the fact I'm feeling lost. You're in my thoughts, I start to search inside what is the cost to have you back cause now I write about the fact it's you I lost. I'm in the dark please light up this place so I can see to walk. I'm feeling the world and time is in a pause. I don't know where to start, and you still have my heart. It's getting very hard cause we're apart, I really need to talk about how I feel this pain is real. I can't believe that you don't know. Why an't you see you're hurting me, am I invisible? I'm feeling low and nobody needs me anymore. I sit alone always at home. Can you get this visual? This pain is visible, and I thought that I was blind. I'm acting happy while you're laughing with him yeah I'm fine. And then I turn around and guess what? I'm really crush. My heart is stuck, I'm out of luck, you've shown me that I'm nothing much. Since the day you left, I just want my life to be same. Going back to the beginning from where it all started. Back when we was together far from broken hearted. It's been awhile I heard that phrase with the 8 letters 3 words. My sky has turn grey and I lost the hope and stop praying. In my bed I'm laying, tears start to fall. Staring at my phone wishing you would call, but you never came through. Please tell me what to do to fall back into your arms again, to laugh and to smile again, to feel your love again. I missed the days when you were the protector of my heart, my soul. I never once dream of letting you go. I slowly change cause day by day the same pain always strain my brain. I feel so clod, I'm getting old. Nothing to hold me, you're not around to hold me down, I'm left to broke and cry through night. My head is light cause blood keeps leaking, tell me why? Why did you leave me to believe your choices and your thought is real. I did you right, I held you tight always, I'm like the seasons, I changed from given to red, I'm all alone in bed. I stare the ceiling felling stress. Never thought I'd be the ex, never thought there'd be a next. So exhausted still cannot rest cause all I ever do is let regrets get the best and yet I try to stand cause I know that it's what you'd want and I don't even know why I still care when I know you're gone. Do you still think of me, am I a memory? Cause I remember you and us. I miss the late night talks and your voice on the phone. Tell me girl, if you still feel the same that when you're dreaming at night, you still seeing my face that you're missing all those late night talks on the phone. That without me in your life, you feel so alone. Cause if you don't and you say you were done, then all the feelings I thought were feeling so wrong. And it might be true, that cupid doesn't lie. But it doesn't matter how cause you're not in my life. Girl, I really hope you will give me one more chance to prove myself the best cause without you, there's nobody else. 


*These ain't true. Truly fake. And I hope it won't be real. Reshape my heart and break? Nope. It won't happen again. Cause I believe Miaa will never do that. 

Iloveyou. Sayang I'm sorry for what happen to us now. I know you're upset and I felt useless cause I done nothing to fix it. I keep thinking what's the best for us. But nothing come through my mind. Remember all time we had really make me happy. Please don't take away the happiness. I hope you are happy with me cause that's my goal. That's I been doing all the time, to make you smile and laugh. It's mean to me if you doesn't know it. In my world you're the queen and you rule it. Iloveyou sincerely. Really, no one ever get my love as much as you do. I hope I will get the same. But the most important in my life is to make my mum and you happy. You don't know how much I love you both. Nothing will separate us, nothing could. I really hope that our miserable time will soon come to the end. Muah :* I won't leave you cause when I got you I won't need nobody else. Be my wife sayang and I will take care of you. Goodnight. Mo dor wo. 

Happy fasting for all Muslim. Hhaha terasa macam nak type panjang panjang pulak. Rindu rasa. Harini dah start puasa, Harini lah aku sakit. Muntah muntah, pening BUT I'm still fasting. *Okay why I always press Caps Lock if I wanna type BUT? See? Dahh ignore that. Hehe tapi serupa mcm bukan orang sakit. Asyik senyum aje. I don't know why the hell is wrong with me. Maybe teringat psl lepas Raya ni kot. Mike ajak pegi Tutty Frutty. Semalam he gave me this message;

Sayang abg ta tipu

Ais cream dia mmg sdp

Nnt kita pegi sesama kay

:/

See? No worry, me got more strength to go there. Masa Raya ni pegi. Wee tk sabar. Okay got one more thing. For this last year, weeeeeee, Mike and Miaa, macamane haa nak ckp? Nak ckp ke tk? Nak ckp ke tk? Okay tknak lah. Let it be our secret. Nnt takut tk jadi malu kang Hhahaha -.-" Baru ingat, aku sambung tuition balik dahhh. Hello Emal, Aiman, Ain, Mok, Syahirah, Ilyas and HELLO MIKE MY HUBBY HUB HUB I'M BACK :D 


Peeps, for all Muslim, jgn nak gembira sgt ea bukak lagu Raya, letak lagu Raya kat blog, macam macam yg ada kena mengena dengan Raya sebab nanti takut korang yg tk beraya nanti. Harini baru first day puasa. Perjalanan kita masih jauh lagi. Okay you don't know what I mean. Physically, don't get too much. 


Happy fasting :)