Standing infront of the mirror, what do you see ? Your friend ? Or was it your worst enemy ? Or you just can't identified it ? Or maybe you just ignore it ? It's ridicolous ? Come on man, what the fuck all this about ? You're just 16 years old boy who think that you already mature enough to fight against the world, nah you don't even know yourself yet. It's funny. You just ain't thinking with that deep dawg. You don't know what life is, you don't ever face real situation of being in living hell so don't talk like you knew everything. I ain't said that you were wrong bout everything, yeah you got right on some things. People nowdays can't think for long enough, they never think of the sequences for the choice they made. For them, enjoy life is the best thing and yes it was but for how long ? You just a lame kid who have nothing, you were controlled by your friends who is better than you. I know, hanging out with them make you feel like somebody. Nah, stop lying to yourself. You dont need them. Do you need everybody attentions ? You're lucky you got one. And she's beautiful I can tell that. Don't deny it. You got her you won't need nobody else, ay man, wake up. Stop complaining. You know yourself better don't tell me that you don't. They told you, you never make it, you will never achieve it, truth is nurishment but people don't believe it. Feel like you living on your own. Remember when the cupid shot you, do you still remember ? How it change your life ? People doesn't see it, but you do feel it. Even if you tell someone, they won't listen to you. That's why God give her. Give everything you have. Cause she will be the only thing you had in this world. No one knew you better than her. People just don't believe you can make it at last, but she does. She believe in you, that's what make you stronger. You had been in a dirty game which nobody willing to clean it. Leave it. Huminity gone. That's the fact. Forget about it. Freestyle your destiny. Make her trust come true at last. Don't let the past hunt you. You can start the future but it starts with leaving the past.

I'm used to be an old lame kid who desperately need everybody attention. To have so much friends will make our life great that's what I thought. When I growing up older, I hate those things and start to think that all of that are bullshit. But then an angel came out from nowhere without any clue totally surprised me. Then this lame life changed. I learned something that I don't need everybody cause I just need someone to adore me. I got you I forget everything else. Swear you got me hypnotized. I think bout you all day and dream bout you all night. Forever I will love you. Cause you just so worth it. You're fantastic baby. I'm overwhelmed that you're mine. I'm so happy. I love you !

Sorry eh lama tk update. Damn lazy. And update blog ni kinda tiresome. Tired of thinking. Okay let's here my extraordinary story ni. As usual, tradition before Raya is Balik Kampung. Balik kampung masa Ahad, 28 August. Tktau lah bape hari bulan. Actually tk tired meh. Enjoy duduk dalam kereta 12 jam bangun susah nak jalan bagai. My hometown is at Kedah which is at Kupang, Baling. Why Baling? Knape nama dia Baling? Oh there's the history there. About Raja Bersiong. Korang tktau cerita tu Google-ing ajelah kan dah maju. Tayah carik buku cerita adik 3 tahun kau tu lagi dah. Budak 3 tahun pun dah pandai ber-Facebook Twitter bagai. Okay back to the story. Masa dia tengah lari kena kejar dgn rakyat dia, dia pegang siong dia tu dekat Kuala Pegang. Lepastu dia baling siong dia tu dekat Baling atau sampai Baling, some kind of that lah. Until siong dia tu smpai dekat Siong. Ini aku dengar dari Cik Idah aku lah. Okay continue. Sampai kampung dah pkul 10 malam. Terus tidur weh. Penatnyaaaaaaaa. Esoknya tkde routine pape. Tk best sgt lah buka puasa kat kampung aku. Esoknya pulak Rayaaaaaaa. Dpat duit raya dari mak mak sedare aku aje. Dgn atuk aku skalie. But dekat rumah ke rumah tu tk dpat. Dorg kata aku dah besar. Patutnya aku lah kena pegang duit bykbyk sbb aku kan dah besar. Hihi. Tapi first Raya memang keje aku makaaaannn aje. Nak add weight tp tk naik naik pun -.-" 1st Raya mestilah pkai my blue songket. Hhahaha really like it. Lepastu pegi sawah kena record sawah. Mike nak tengok. Dia sruh bwak balik buah aku tk bwak pun. Hihihihi. Second day pergi Tanjung Dawai ramai ramai. Round dekat Pantai Merdeka naik bot. And malam pulak pergi Kolam air Panas Ulu Legong. Aku tk boleh tahan panas and sejuk. So aku dduk kat kolam budak kecik berendam dlam tu. Raya ketiga pergi Taiping melawat akak ayah, mak sedare ayah. Raya keempat pergi Penang. Naik Bukit Bendera. Walaweeeyyyy it's very scary bila nak naik atas tu. Train dia tk jatuh ke? Sepanjang naik tu aku diri tegak aje tk bergerak. Yelah takut sangat. Yg adik perempuan aku dgn sedare aku tu mcam tkde perasaan boleh tengok Georgetown depan depan. Dah lah depan tu kaca dari atas smpai bwah. Tp yg aku geramnyaa. Rmai orang bila masuk train berpusu-pusu berebut-rebut nak duduk. Tngal yg tk dpat tu kena diri. Aku diri bahagian depan sekali. Tp bila train dah bergerak klau boleh nak diri aje tengok train tu bergerak. Akai hang letak kat lutut apa? Nak sgt dduk tu duduklah. Aku tk kacau pun korang kan? Nak kacau pandangan aku yg tengah berdiri ni pulak. #Still tk puas hati ni. Hihi okay sudah. Naik atas nak online. Hhaha Raya lah katakan. Mesti byk duit nak topup. So apa lah salahnya bazirkan 2 ringgit. Tp aku habiskan 6 ringgit kot sbb ada tempat kat situ tkde line sgt. Okay bacckkk. Bila trun Penang Hill, pergi Batu Feringghi. Jalan-jalan aje tk trun pun sbb minyak nak habis. Carik petrol station kat situ tkde terpaksa patah balik pergi Georgetown. Lepastu balik kampung balik. Kena naik feri sbb adik sedare aku tu nak sgt naik feri. 


Okay mula-mula tu okay lagilah tngu 30 minit aje. Dah 45 minit aku sruh ayah naik jambatan tp ayah aku sruh tngu dulu. Okay tngu lagi. Dah 1 jam aku dah nak naik api aku sruh ayah aku naik jambatan tp ayah aku sruh tngu dulu. Lepastu baru dpat gerak dah nak smpai masuk terminal feri. Lepastu kena tngu lagi. Okay tkpe masatu aku boleh control anger aku. 1 jam 45 minit tu aku tk tahan aku ckap kat ayah aku patah blek naik jambatan. Ayah aku tknak sbb tkde jalan keluar tp aku sruh ayah ketepikan batu kat sebelah pastu keluar. Ayah aku berkeras tknak jugak tu. Angin aku dah tk boleh tahan. Aku keluar aku jerit 'Ape yg lambat sgt ni? Klau tknak tngu pegi balik naik jambatan aje lah.' Lepastu merayau kat terminal feri tu. Lepastu dah gerak. Dah nak smpai feri tu worker dia letak con merah kat depan. Arghhhhh lagi 2 aje tk boleh ke? Motor tolak 8. Hihi. Kena tngu 45 minit lagi. Sementara tu mengelamun kejap kat tepi laut tu. Tgk feri. Tgk Butterworth. Tenang aje dduk tepi laut. Ayah aku boleh tidur lagi kat tepi tu. Lepastu baru dpat naik feri. Ahhhh lega hati. Lepastu smpai kampung dah pkul 2.46 pagi. 


Pkul 8 lebih dah bgun sbb sejuk sgt and dah kena blek KL. Pkul 12 lebih dah gerak. Itu pun jam kat highway. Malam baru smpai. Dah lah esoknya ada open house kat rumah Mike. Ingatkan balik esok rupenye balik Isnin. So terpaksalah berkorban 1 hari cuti sekolah. Esoknya mak aku sruh pergi sekolah. Erghhh penat tahu tk. Tp tkpelah dpat jugak keluar rumah. Hihi. Masa sekolah mmg nothing interesting. Sabtu beraya. Sabtu ae? Err tk tk. Sabtu turun bandar tengok Hantu Bonceng. Korang kena tengok cerita tu. And ada 1 jam ni aku berkenan sangat. It's so gorgeous. Morgan brand. Just RM251 after less. Okay doesn't matter about the price. Yg penting nak jam tuuuu. #Actually aku tk suke sgt dgn jam. Asal boleh pakai aje just Mike yg ajar so addicted. Hoho. 


Haaa Ahad yg beraya. Dengan Jumaat lepas dengan todaaayyyyyy. Tadi beraya 2 rumah aje hihi lepastu pergi JBI amek angin lepastu MCD lepastu balik. 


#Eh penatlah taip panjang panjang ni. Nak warnakan lagi.